I had to go to the surgery today boy and as I got out of the car the church clock was striking 11 , I couldn't move for a minute my feet felt like they were stuck to the ground . All I could see was you , to the sound of the clock all I could think it was your funeral at that time 6 years ago today boy . Every moment from the time you were taken poorly , to loosing you and there after will never leave me Shane . I know I will never be at peace as long as I live , no one will ever know what I feel inside . I miss you so much Shane . It hurts . my love is forever with you xx mum xx