I was sat in the garden about 10 last night it was really beautiful , the stars were out and it was so clear, and again at 7 this morning the sun was coming up the birds were singing lovely ,and the woodpecker was so loud , for just a while I felt at peace, then when it clouded over and started to rain it felt like my heart and mind so dark and sad , four years today since we walked behind you and I still feel every step . Will never stop missing you. love as always and forever xx mum xx