Everyday I wish I could just see you or even just pick up the phone , and tell you about the day I've had or you just to laugh with me or at me telling me I'm mad , it's so hard each and every day without you , how many moments of the day I wish if only !!! I look around and feel so lonely without you , you are the one I should of spent the most years with as we grew up as kids and how we always joked about it being me and you when we are old and grey , and now I'm lost without you . I can never thank you enough for all you done for the kids and I I know you would be so proud of the kids the way they have looked after mum and me , they have grown up so much the last year , and learnt so much about life. But miss you so very much , you are the most kind caring and loyal brother any one could of wished for and I'm so very proud to call you mine xxxxx