Sorry boy I haven't been on for a little while , doesn't mean I 've not been thinking about you , just means it's been a busy time . Charmaine and the girls have been to Disney for Fay's hen party , today the boys are on Adams stag party , so sad because you should be out with them having fun , I know you will be with them in another way , but it can never be the same , the hole left in our hearts and mind can never heal . There is so many things I want to tell you , I miss you Shane so very much . Charmaine brought me home a crystal from Disney bless her , I took it out the box , and looked at it in every angle then Charmaine said are you blind mother , then I realised that your picture was smiling at me inside , how lovely it is, I love it , but it also makes me sad when I sit and look at it on days like today when I am missing you so very much . All my love xx mum xx